What was I thinking...

So it's been awhile! Lots of things going on. One minute I am dying of cabing fever and wanting to go to work, so I start subbing just to get out of the house. Well then they want me to stay for the rest of the year...then I get nervous. I don't want to be that committed-haha. I want to work when I want and stay home with Ethan when I want. O why can't we just have it all?